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Nostalgia
"Since the day I met you I wanted to make you mine then I met you and got to know you and the feeling only grew stronger not a day passes that we don't talk and I wouldn't ever change that everyday we grow closer feels like magic I just can't describe how it feels but I love you"
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Forgot To Forget You!!
every time i look in the mirror
all i see is your face
every time i try to sleep
all i could hear is your voice
stopping me from jumping off a bridge
yelling at me, telling me how i failed you.
now i'm alone, lying on my bed
falling to pieces, willingly dying
wishing i could hear your voice
singing me sweet lullaby
mourning over my loss, blacking out
that's all i could say
Darling please come back home
i won't hurt you again
Darling please come back home
cuz i can't take it anymore
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My Poetic Love Letter...
My Love,
The moment i realized that i have feelings for you, without a single doubt i allowed you to come inside my heart. I love the way even the thought of you by my side makes me blush. I love the way i want to go back to sleep so i can dream of you again. I love waking up to your message everyday knowing that you're the person I'm going to talk when i start my day. I wish you could call me every morning right after i wake up and every night before going to bed because hearing your voice just calms my soul, makes my heart beat fast.
I know that it's taking me time to open up to you... and I'm aware that I'm still not naked open right in front of you but i want you to know that i try so hard, so hard that sometimes it hurts me, it hurts pushing you away from me when i don't want to. But you should know my love, I'm just too scared to open up to someone and then being thrown under the bus but yes i try so hard to express how i feel and this is all new to me so i try my best to accept
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Literature
My Gasoline Tears...
you stopped saying goodnight
and now I can't sleep
my whole world is chaotic
my eyes filled with gasoline
wish I could cry a river
and burn myself to the ground
let my ashes scatter
so there's no way to turn around...
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Literature
Was i too easy to let go?
I didn't want you to go, didn't want you to leave...
It was just the pain on the tip of my tongue,from biting it everytime i couldn't say what i mean...
But you could stay you know... you could resist, you could fight against my will. You could say you don't want to leave, You could say you won't let go...
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Literature
Long distance
we might be thousands of miles apart.
but remember my love,
the distance won't change my heart...
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My fairytale!
We all look for happiness everyday, trying to find it in the places where there's even a possibility of a hint of it.
life feels great if you're in love with yourself. i used to think that loving yourself is enough, that you feel complete and you need no one in your life in any kind of relationship in order to keep your sanity or just to feel better about yourself because people are temporary. they don't stay around for long. they can't.
Sometimes you prove yourself wrong, things work out differently and you begin to feel the same you've always told yourself not to... but you still are too scared to open up because you want to remain guarded. being the guarded one is the reason you're able to make them believe that you are a strong being. you're afraid to love because you've been in so much pain that when this beautiful feeling starts to bloom inside your heart you take a mallet and break it into little pieces, why is this happening so fast? this is the question you ask yourself...
lif
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Literature
You're my poison, you're the only antidote
You're running in my bloodstream,
your touch,
your hugs,
your kisses,
killing me slowly...
the scent of your body
It drives me crazy...
I'm addicted,
i breathe you in
your love is the poison i ardor.
can i consume you like an antidote baby?
cuz I'm slowly fading away...
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Things left unsaid!
It's 3am, cold outside. I woke up from my sleep, saw you in my dreams again... why am i secretly falling apart? lying on my bed i thought. I wish i was courageous enough to tell you that i want you to hold me close, tell me how much you care. I miss your random texts telling me what do you want to do to me, that how you love my lumps i hate the most. I miss the way you used to call me beautiful, that i miss your calm and heavy breaths which melt my ears making me feel all those things you have on your mind...
how much i want to kiss your collar bones... want to hear your voice which sounds like a lullaby, whispering my name on purpose because you know i love when you call my name. Moaning randomly, always turning me on...
watch your angelic face while you're sleeping, such a peaceful sight. the unsaid things i can't say to you on your face, i miss saying them when you're sleeping.
idk if it's good or bad but you leave me speechless, your personality has that influence on me. half of th
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Is it a goodbye to my almost lover...?
Darling, I know that you already know the truth but yes, I've decided to keep it all to myself because this is the only way there's less pain for us. I'm going to break your heart now, push you away...
hate me! hate me for this because I'm letting you go, I'm letting you down.
But darling, i have no other way. This is killing me, staying close to your heart, talking everyday, then why are we still so far away?
It's hard to watch your heart snapping under the pressure of my words, and as much as i want to fix it, i should restrain myself from doing it all over again.
it's been three days i haven't kissed or hugged you, haven't felt the heat of your body, the warmth of your love, but it feels like it's been three decades...
I know that you're aware that I'm pretending hard to hate you, but yes this is it, this is how it's going to be...
I'm trying so hard to drift away from the love you gave me, staying up all night, crying myself to sleep, asking myself why can't i have you by my side..
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Let's Pretend!!
Can't hold myself, can't get any better, I'm torn apart from my soul
Feelings switched off...
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Literature
A Nix to Self Destruction!
her chest feels like it's going to explode, lungs fighting for some air. sitting alone in the dark, deep silence yet she can hear herself screaming, calling for help, asking herself what have i done to deserve all this?
he asked her to give up on him, to let him go.
he thinks she can't take it, she can't bear it at all, or she needs to stay safe from all the hate she got.
She wanted to fight, wanted to say that she can stay but she bit her tongue once again, pretending that she's okay.
Her heart yelled at her, screaming, not again!!! just say it, say that you want to stay!!! your story isn't over yet, you need to try again!
the earth falls above her, wrecking her once again.
She could see him, see him suffer. telling her that it's for the best because he doesn't want to see her in pain.
both shattered...hiding whatever they want to say...making everyone else comfortable...pretending that's all they wanna say...
can you hear them? Can you see their crushed hearts? Screaming silently to
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Bad Teacher!
Everything that i want to do
Anywhere that i want to be
You say i suck, i try again
But still i fail to do it till the end
Because
You make it look like it's not cool
You always make me look like a fool
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Literature
That One Night...
How can she forget that night?
The night when the devil was fragile.. the night when she finally found that she wasn't feeling for a piece of rock...when there was no distance... no yelling... There was a deep silence yet the selfless emotions were flooding.
The girl who was giving up in the cold dark night came back to life when she heard him cry for her...
She could feel his pain... she could feel his heart breaking... his fiery soul was damaged that he couldn't give her his all.
That moment reminded her of all the things they used to do.. the way he used to stare her. The way she used to ignore him.... the moments when he was always around her... When she was unaware that she's actually falling for this person.. those days were amazing because she could yell at him and make him go mad and then go back and make up the same day... when the things were less complicated....
Both sad... tired of fighting... nothing left to say to each other... on and off whimpers... making the night
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Barefaced Liar!
why do i keep trying
what am i waiting for
wounded soul
shattered heart
pretty face
hideous creature
several lies
fake promises
why do i keep trying
what am i waiting for
why isn't he letting me go
where is this pain coming from
hiding my face under my pillow
i spend my nights day-to-day
shedding the tears to heal my heart
his lies killing me everyday
i thought i was strong enough
why do i feel like dying
knowing the fact that he doesn't care
why do i keep trying
i need to move on
because he's a fairy tale
i need to move on
because fairy tales aren't real
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Literature
So many questions... No answer!
There comes a time in your life when you question the purpose of your existence with so much agony that you feel like it's the end of the world for you... you feel like the moment you're going to close your eyes you can't open them because you've lost spark in them and because of that, you feel blind. why is this life so unfair? why can't you have all the happiness altogether? why this torment? where are your fantasy creatures who used to live in your daydreams that you thought can change your life? where are those princes who save their princesses from the blood thirsty monsters? why is this world demolishing each others' humanity like they don't have anything else to do? why is everyone so busy in their life that they're forgetting the importance of all the people around them? if that's how it's going to be... why am i not feeling the same way? why am i strung out on the same thoughts and same tenderness? why am i persistent on the thought of taking care of the people around me? I do
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Cold Hearted
I'm tearing them down,
Piece by piece.
Let the walls fall,
Let the pain increase.
I stare my pain in the face,
Let it rip me a part.
Show what I've always feared,
In the depths of my cold heart.
I review my lack of care,
All the people that I've hurt.
When did I become so cold?
When did loved ones turn to dirt?
What happened to me?
Once so loving and kind.
When did it get so bad?
Did I suddenly lose my mind?
I want to trust again,
To love and to care,
But is the risk to high?
Is the cost of pain fair?
I realize that it's not.
I'm safe within my walls.
So much better to be cold,
Then to get hurt in the fall.
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You didn't dare.
She smiled,
but it was fake.
She laughed,
but she's about to break.
She reached out,
but no one came,
tried to fake it,
but the pain stayed the same.
This girl, she called to you,
but you didn't care.
Something told you to help,
but you didn't dare.
What would the others say?
The ones who called her a freak.
They may taunt or shun you,
so you choose not to speak.
Then she decides to leave.
Because no one wants her here.
You'll never see her cry.
She'll never shed another tear.
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When I Said
When I said I wanted a fairy tale
I meant I wanted a prince.
I didn't want to be locked in a
Tower.
I didn't want to be fought by a
Wicked Witch.
I didn't want
This.
When I said I wanted a fairy tale
I meant I wanted to be a princess.
I didn't want to watch a rose
Die.
I didn't want to wear the gown
Temporarily.
I wanted it
Forever.
See,
When I said I wanted a fairy tale...
I expected it to end in a
Happily
Ever
After.

But i never expected it to end like this.
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Lessons Learned
She is in the pictures,
Smiling her toothless grin.
What I wouldn't give
Not to care again.
It was a beautiful and innocent time;
She'd never believe
That there are poems
That don't need to rhyme.
I have so many things to tell her--
That Pooh Bear headbands
Aren't cool forever
(No matter how much cuter they are than Hello Kitty)
And she won't love Kim Possible when she's older,
And that hearts
Break easily--
Even if they're made of gold.
I wanna tell her --
Again and again --
Even if she's heard it a thousand times,
Even if it's a million,
That she should never hurry growing up:
Cause when she eventually does..
She'll keep wishing to go back
To that point of ignorance--
Of not knowing.
I wonder what she'll tell me in return
Knowing her,
Guessing her words,
She'll tell me to pray
Every night to the angels
Because they're always listening.
She'll preach at me
For falling in love
With the one who was so obviously
The first candidate to break my heart
Didn't I know better
Than to give my h
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Love
Love is knowing someone is there for you,
Through all the ups and downs.
Knowing you can be yourself,
And always having them by your side.
Love is never having to be alone,
Never needing or wanting to leave.
Never being needy or unsatisfied,
Always being happy with what you already have.
Love is a gift that should be shared.
Love is a privilage that should be kept.
Everyone should have love in their lives,
In any shape or form.
Love is a treasure.
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Literature
I'm Struggling to Hold Back
There is another soul inside of me
and I often try my hardest to keep it suppressed.
Because the things that it would do to you
might leave you a beautiful mess...
He'd start by wrapping a leash around your throat;
A metal one to show your status as a pet.
And he would make you beg at his feet and toes;
simply to watch the fabric getting wet.
And when he is ready, he would make you his,
though this time he wouldn't make the same mistake.
He'd control you in the way that you desire,
because you were always his to break
And that my dear, is how you often remind me of what I really am...
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little miss dying inside
she wears bruises on her heart,
and bandages on her arms.
she likes to pretend that,
nothing with her is ever wrong.
but she cant hide the fact,
that she will always feel alone.
and pretending that she isnt fucked up,
is less comforting than actually feeling whole.
so lets continue on,
and ignore her tear stained cheeks.
because even though she says she is okay,
she really wants you to open your eyes and see.
she wants someone to stop her,
and look her in the eye.
she wants someone to tell her,
to stop living this lie.
but so far she is of no importance,
and people ignore her cries.
i guess no one will care for,
little miss dying inside.
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Someone's Else
It started off as a joke, now it’s a curse for me.
And all he did is write a verse for me.
I am not who you think, even I don’t.
All he wants is a hearse for me.
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November Cold
November sinks its icy fingers
Between my shoulder blades
And an ache blossoms inside of me.
I imagine a lacy white filigree of frost
Growing over my lungs,
Spidering over my veins
And up into my heart.
The cold crawls up my throat
So that when I breathe
I half expect snowflakes and hoarfrost
To fall from my lips.
I've got an ice-heavy heart in me
And I am breathing winter,
Wondering if my tears would freeze
If they even fell at all.
Help me shake November's chill.
Blaze passion and fire into me
And never let me pull away from the heat of you
Kiss away the rime of ice that coats me
Sink your fingers into my skin
So that cracks spiral crazily from your fingertips
So that finally, with a small shudder,
I splinter and sink into you
Burned and blackened,
I am only yours
And November will never touch me.
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i should have stayed quiet
i tried not to wear my words on a sleeve, but the
poetry poured out anyway,
revealing sorrow
i never thought would surface.
(i was bulletproof once, but my luggage slipped out of
the quarantine zone, and now
i'm coughing up memories, all those seconds
i wished i didn't exist).
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Hidden Emotions
Why are you hiding
   behind that lie of silence?
This stillness is almost pungent,
leaving an acid taste of words
   wishing to be free
   from this cage you keep;
Please, just speak your mind,
   and give yourself the chance
      to write a new chapter.
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Heart Ache
She fears people like herself
He is what she is
Mirroring each other
Deeper they fall
She cannot trust him
He cannot trust her
Hearts already broken
Lives already shattered
She runs from it all
Between each other
So many walls
Help them cope
But neither are brave enough
to reach past their own walls
and tap on the other’s
She’s scared
Of what he may do
Of what she may do
If these walls may fall
Repressed with knowledge
Hidden with reason
If someone is going to break it down
Maybe it should be him
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The only one
He carved me a wooden heart
To lay upon my breast
So he could pretend, if only once,
That something beat within my chest
But as the years passed by
The wood splintered and grew old
All the love he had for me
Was truly just as cold
The heart that he did carve for me
Was his, no other man's
But all the love he had for me-
It splintered in my hands
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Irreversible Memories
The time is wrong,
What have I done?
The days are long,
I want to run.
As far away as I possibly can,
To a place that's not yet corrupt by man.
What terrible creatures humans can be,
We've lost sight of things that are simple to see.
I've often pondered the easy way out,
I don't understand what the fuss is about.
I'd be lost in a world full of endless bliss,
In a world hopefully much different than this.
I can't erase what's on the linear line,
Just the memory starts a chill down my spine.
Is the easy way out the right path to choose?
I thankfully have a whole lot to lose.
Though I must say it's tempting me,
The closest thing to being eternally free.
But it's a little late to change my fate,
So I guess it will just have to wait…
Because the time is wrong,
What have I done?
The days are long,
I want to run,
Far, far away.
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True
I'm a liar telling the truth
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"Since the day I met you I wanted to make you mine then I met you and got to know you and the feeling only grew stronger not a day passes that we don't talk and I wouldn't ever change that everyday we grow closer feels like magic I just can't describe how it feels but I love you"
every time i look in the mirror
all i see is your face
every time i try to sleep
all i could hear is your voice
stopping me from jumping off a bridge
yelling at me, telling me how i failed you.
now i'm alone, lying on my bed
falling to pieces, willingly dying
wishing i could hear your voice
singing me sweet lullaby
mourning over my loss, blacking out
that's all i could say
Darling please come back home
i won't hurt you again
Darling please come back home
cuz i can't take it anymore
My Love,
The moment i realized that i have feelings for you, without a single doubt i allowed you to come inside my heart. I love the way even the thought of you by my side makes me blush. I love the way i want to go back to sleep so i can dream of you again. I love waking up to your message everyday knowing that you're the person I'm going to talk when i start my day. I wish you could call me every morning right after i wake up and every night before going to bed because hearing your voice just calms my soul, makes my heart beat fast.
I know that it's taking me time to open up to you... and I'm aware that I'm still not naked open right in front of you but i want you to know that i try so hard, so hard that sometimes it hurts me, it hurts pushing you away from me when i don't want to. But you should know my love, I'm just too scared to open up to someone and then being thrown under the bus but yes i try so hard to express how i feel and this is all new to me so i try my best to accept the changes that your strong personality is leaving on me by winning me like an enemy's state. I'm trying my best to wave the white flag.
My mind is always stuck in the dark depths of your doe-eyed innocence. Wish i could help you free yourself from the cage of your mind.
I love when you say that i belong to you, my heart starts beating so fast. But i want myself to be your second love and the only love I'll ever want for you to first love yourself with all your flaws. I love the positive changes I've seen in you specially the confidence that flows in your blood now. I wish i could go back in time take all of your sadness by healing all of your scars and turning them into an infinite amount of joy. I wish you could tell me about your deepest dirtiest secrets and let me love you more because i accept you with all the deep dark spots of your past.
I love the way you put life in everything you paint. I'd like to watch how you paint so I could stare at the beautiful sight and fall in love with you even more. I wish you could put life in me someday by painting me with those magical hands just the way you paint my life with all the radiant colours you don't use in your paintings. I can feel the sadness in the colours... they're always the same. I hope I'll help you to make one like a colourful rainbow in the sky, right after the rain, filled with all the beautiful colours... the colours that i want to fill in your heart, in your life.
I feel like I'm a wax figurine...maybe that is why i melt every time you touch my heart.

I feel trapped behind the bars when we don't talk. Wish you could hear my silent screams, the crack in my voice when i try to hide it by laughing. My swollen eyes from all the cries you can't hear. My scattered pieces when i fall on the floor and spread like a weak sheet of paper thrown into a paper shredder. My bleeding heart when your words hurt me and i try not to feel anything by numbing myself, my dead silence when i notice people getting close to you ripping my soul apart from my body. When i can't touch you because we're separated by a glass wall. When my heart yells " I love you" but I'm unable to express myself. When i give you a gun by pushing you away from me and you do exactly what i want by pulling the trigger shooting me down with all those bullets.
Your absence... it burns me like gasoline eating a log.  There had never been so much flame in my heart.
I love the way you change my mind, turning me on with your moans and whispers. I love the way you kiss me and how the taste of you stays around the corner of my lips so i could lick it all day feeling you close. I love the way you trace my body and how it gives me tingles every time you touch me and so i could feel the heat of your body pressed tight against mine. These are the moments i fall in love with you even more.
Can i request you to never fall out of my love? Can i ask you to never give up on me, to keep loving my fragile heart?
Because; you're my handsome angle, my scandalous love, my soul deep connection, my fairy tale love and my happily ever after. 💜
My Poetic Love Letter...
He asked me to write him a letter, it was the only moment for me to put all of my feelings into words that I've never said. Although that's not enough, i can write all day about him...I love this guy more than anything in the world. It's just too hard for me to express.
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you stopped saying goodnight
and now I can't sleep
my whole world is chaotic
my eyes filled with gasoline
wish I could cry a river
and burn myself to the ground
let my ashes scatter
so there's no way to turn around...
I didn't want you to go, didn't want you to leave...
It was just the pain on the tip of my tongue,from biting it everytime i couldn't say what i mean...

But you could stay you know... you could resist, you could fight against my will. You could say you don't want to leave, You could say you won't let go...
Not going to make any resolution for the New Year, but i have so much to say, so much to divulge... This year was the best yet the worst year of my life. there was a point when i felt my whole life is shattered. Sometimes something hits you deep inside your heart and rips your soul apart from your body, you have to crush your feelings with a mallet to stay put because you're meant to be strong...you've always been strong. I've made countless mistakes.. this year brought me to my breaking point but as every cloud has a silver lining... I've learned how to come out of your terrible phase when your family and friends are standing right behind you to hold you in case you lose control and fall. Not going to drag it anymore because i can as i can be a lunatic :D
just want to share with you all that i will start posting some pages from my journal and some of my poems as some of them changed a friend's life. i kept my stuff hidden for past few years but i hope i'll be able to share them now. xx

Happy 2k17. here's to the new start! xx <3

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Lady-Yume Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2017   Writer
Hello,

Thank you for reading my work and adding me to your +watch! :aww:
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emperorbutch Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017
I appreciate the watch very much. I'll try not to disappoint. 😊
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RawEmotionalSoul Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  Hobbyist General Artist
Sure 😊
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