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Things left unsaid!
It's 3am, cold outside. I woke up from my sleep, saw you in my dreams again... why am i secretly falling apart? lying on my bed i thought. I wish i was courageous enough to tell you that i want you to hold me close, tell me how much you care, i miss your random texts telling me what do you want to do to me, that how you love my lumps i hate the most, i miss the way you used to call me beautiful, that i miss your calm and heavy breaths which melt my ears making me feel all those things you have on your mind...
how much i want to kiss your collar bones... want to hear your voice which sounds like a lullaby, whispering my name on purpose because you know i love when you call my name, moaning randomly, always turning me on...
watch your angelic face while you're sleeping, such a peaceful sight. the unsaid things i can't say to you on your face, i miss saying them when you're sleeping.
idk if it's good or bad but you leave me speechless, your personality has that influence on me. half of th
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Is it a goodbye to my almost lover...?
Darling, I know that you already know the truth but yes, I've decided to keep it all to myself because this is the only way there's less pain for us. I'm going to break your heart now, push you away...
hate me! hate me for this because I'm letting you go, I'm letting you down.
But darling, i have no other way. This is killing me, staying close to your heart, talking everyday, then why are we still so far away?
It's hard to watch your heart snapping under the pressure of my words, and as much as i want to fix it, i should restrain myself from doing it all over again.
it's been three days i haven't kissed or hugged you, haven't felt the heat of your body, the warmth of your love, but it feels like it's been three decades...
I know that you're aware that I'm pretending hard to hate you, but yes this is it, this is how it's going to be...
I'm trying so hard to drift away from the love you gave me, staying up all night, crying myself to sleep, asking myself why can't i have you by my side..
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Let's Pretend!!
Can't hold myself, can't get any better, I'm torn apart from my soul
Feelings switched off...
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A Nix to Self Destruction!
her chest feels like it's going to explode, lungs fighting for some air. sitting alone in the dark, deep silence yet she can hear herself screaming, calling for help, asking herself what have i done to deserve all this?
he asked her to give up on him, to let him go.
he thinks she can't take it, she can't bear it at all, or she needs to stay safe from all the hate she got.
She wanted to fight, wanted to say that she can stay but she bit her tongue once again, pretending that she's okay.
Her heart yelled at her, screaming, not again!!! just say it, say that you want to stay!!! your story isn't over yet, you need to try again!
the earth falls above her, wrecking her once again.
She could see him, see him suffer. telling her that it's for the best because he doesn't want to see her in pain.
both shattered...hiding whatever they want to say...making everyone else comfortable...pretending that's all they wanna say...
can you hear them? Can you see their crushed hearts? Screaming silently to
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Bad Teacher!
Everything that i want to do
Anywhere that i want to be
You say i suck, i try again
But still i fail to do it till the end
Because
You make it look like it's not cool
You always make me look like a fool
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That One Night...
How can she forget that night?
The night when the devil was fragile.. the night when she finally found that she wasn't feeling for a piece of rock...when there was no distance... no yelling... There was a deep silence yet the selfless emotions were flooding.
The girl who was giving up in the cold dark night came back to life when she heard him cry for her...
She could feel his pain... she could feel his heart breaking... his fiery soul was damaged that he couldn't give her his all.
That moment reminded her of all the things they used to do.. the way he used to stare her. The way she used to ignore him.... the moments when he was always around her... When she was unaware that she's actually falling for this person.. those days were amazing because she could yell at him and make him go mad and then go back and make up the same day... when the things were less complicated....
Both sad... tired of fighting... nothing left to say to each other... on and off whimpers... making the night
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Barefaced Liar!
why do i keep trying
what am i waiting for
wounded soul
shattered heart
pretty face
hideous creature
several lies
fake promises
why do i keep trying
what am i waiting for
why isn't he letting me go
where is this pain coming from
hiding my face under my pillow
i spend my nights day-to-day
shedding the tears to heal my heart
his lies killing me everyday
i thought i was strong enough
why do i feel like dying
knowing the fact that he doesn't care
why do i keep trying
i need to move on
because he's a fairy tale
i need to move on
because fairy tales aren't real
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So many questions... No answer!
There comes a time in your life when you question the purpose of your existence with so much agony that you feel like it's the end of the world for you... you feel like the moment you're going to close your eyes you can't open them because you've lost spark in them and because of that, you feel blind. why is this life so unfair? why can't you have all the happiness altogether? why this torment? where are your fantasy creatures who used to live in your daydreams that you thought can change your life? where are those princes who save their princesses from the blood thirsty monsters? why is this world demolishing each others' humanity like they don't have anything else to do? why is everyone so busy in their life that they're forgetting the importance of all the people around them? if that's how it's going to be... why am i not feeling the same way? why am i strung out on the same thoughts and same tenderness? why am i persistent on the thought of taking care of the people around me? I do
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Paramour- Don't Break her!
You think she can stay a lil bit longer because that's what she's suppose to do as a lover?
Because she has feelings for you?
Feelings which can't be erased easily...
She can love you as hard as she wants yet leave you alone to get exposed to the rest of the cruel world. The cruel world that won't let you feel good about yourself even for a single day.
She can see you getting close to the other kept women and not say a word to your face that how much that kills her, that how shattered is her soul.She can break herself into pieces but not beg you to be hers as she loves her dignity more than that.
Although her love is deep and strong but she doesn't want you to drown into its depth...
She can't be loved completely, she's a fragile piece of a mysterious land. Don't show too much don't show less she doesn't care because she will still love you without an agenda.
Don't let her fall asleep onto your temporary lap... don't let her think that you're it for her when you can't pick up her broke
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Inner Beauty!
As much as i love myself...
and it's nice to know that people think that I'm a beautiful person
but how little do the know...
that the things I'd love to hear are divergent
I'd love to hear that I'm important
Like the things they'd like to keep
"to fight for me
to never let me go"
that they're proud to be with me
that i make them happy
how little do they know that
the compliments i want to hear are not just about how do i look like, i want to feel good about my inner soul...
-R. Raw
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Love
Love is knowing someone is there for you,
Through all the ups and downs.
Knowing you can be yourself,
And always having them by your side.
Love is never having to be alone,
Never needing or wanting to leave.
Never being needy or unsatisfied,
Always being happy with what you already have.
Love is a gift that should be shared.
Love is a privilage that should be kept.
Everyone should have love in their lives,
In any shape or form.
Love is a treasure.
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I'm Struggling to Hold Back
There is another soul inside of me
and I often try my hardest to keep it suppressed.
Because the things that it would do to you
might leave you a beautiful mess...
He'd start by wrapping a leash around your throat;
A metal one to show your status as a pet.
And he would make you beg at his feet and toes;
simply to watch the fabric getting wet.
And when he is ready, he would make you his,
though this time he wouldn't make the same mistake.
He'd control you in the way that you desire,
because you were always his to break
And that my dear, is how you often remind me of what I really am...
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little miss dying inside
she wears bruises on her heart,
and bandages on her arms.
she likes to pretend that,
nothing with her is ever wrong.
but she cant hide the fact,
that she will always feel alone.
and pretending that she isnt fucked up,
is less comforting than actually feeling whole.
so lets continue on,
and ignore her tear stained cheeks.
because even though she says she is okay,
she really wants you to open your eyes and see.
she wants someone to stop her,
and look her in the eye.
she wants someone to tell her,
to stop living this lie.
but so far she is of no importance,
and people ignore her cries.
i guess no one will care for,
little miss dying inside.
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Someone's Else
It started off as a joke, now it’s a curse for me.
And all he did is write a verse for me.
I am not who you think, even I don’t.
All he wants is a hearse for me.
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November Cold
November sinks its icy fingers
Between my shoulder blades
And an ache blossoms inside of me.
I imagine a lacy white filigree of frost
Growing over my lungs,
Spidering over my veins
And up into my heart.
The cold crawls up my throat
So that when I breathe
I half expect snowflakes and hoarfrost
To fall from my lips.
I've got an ice-heavy heart in me
And I am breathing winter,
Wondering if my tears would freeze
If they even fell at all.
Help me shake November's chill.
Blaze passion and fire into me
And never let me pull away from the heat of you
Kiss away the rime of ice that coats me
Sink your fingers into my skin
So that cracks spiral crazily from your fingertips
So that finally, with a small shudder,
I splinter and sink into you
Burned and blackened,
I am only yours
And November will never touch me.
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i should have stayed quiet
i tried not to wear my words on a sleeve, but the
poetry poured out anyway,
revealing sorrow
i never thought would surface.
(i was bulletproof once, but my luggage slipped out of
the quarantine zone, and now
i'm coughing up memories, all those seconds
i wished i didn't exist).
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Hidden Emotions
Why are you hiding
   behind that lie of silence?
This stillness is almost pungent,
leaving an acid taste of words
   wishing to be free
   from this cage you keep;
Please, just speak your mind,
   and give yourself the chance
      to write a new chapter.
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Heart Ache
She fears people like herself
He is what she is
Mirroring each other
Deeper they fall
She cannot trust him
He cannot trust her
Hearts already broken
Lives already shattered
She runs from it all
Between each other
So many walls
Help them cope
But neither are brave enough
to reach past their own walls
and tap on the other’s
She’s scared
Of what he may do
Of what she may do
If these walls may fall
Repressed with knowledge
Hidden with reason
If someone is going to break it down
Maybe it should be him
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The only one
He carved me a wooden heart
To lay upon my breast
So he could pretend, if only once,
That something beat within my chest
But as the years passed by
The wood splintered and grew old
All the love he had for me
Was truly just as cold
The heart that he did carve for me
Was his, no other man's
But all the love he had for me-
It splintered in my hands
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Irreversible Memories
The time is wrong,
What have I done?
The days are long,
I want to run.
As far away as I possibly can,
To a place that's not yet corrupt by man.
What terrible creatures humans can be,
We've lost sight of things that are simple to see.
I've often pondered the easy way out,
I don't understand what the fuss is about.
I'd be lost in a world full of endless bliss,
In a world hopefully much different than this.
I can't erase what's on the linear line,
Just the memory starts a chill down my spine.
Is the easy way out the right path to choose?
I thankfully have a whole lot to lose.
Though I must say it's tempting me,
The closest thing to being eternally free.
But it's a little late to change my fate,
So I guess it will just have to wait…
Because the time is wrong,
What have I done?
The days are long,
I want to run,
Far, far away.
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True
I'm a liar telling the truth
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It's 3am, cold outside. I woke up from my sleep, saw you in my dreams again... why am i secretly falling apart? lying on my bed i thought. I wish i was courageous enough to tell you that i want you to hold me close, tell me how much you care, i miss your random texts telling me what do you want to do to me, that how you love my lumps i hate the most, i miss the way you used to call me beautiful, that i miss your calm and heavy breaths which melt my ears making me feel all those things you have on your mind...
how much i want to kiss your collar bones... want to hear your voice which sounds like a lullaby, whispering my name on purpose because you know i love when you call my name, moaning randomly, always turning me on...
watch your angelic face while you're sleeping, such a peaceful sight. the unsaid things i can't say to you on your face, i miss saying them when you're sleeping.
idk if it's good or bad but you leave me speechless, your personality has that influence on me. half of the things i want to say , i'm unable to say them because i'm scared that once my feelings will be all clear to you, it'll be easy for you to break me..

don't let me slip, don't let me fall
wish you could give me your all...
I hate that even after all this time
i can't even call you mine.
Darling, I know that you already know the truth but yes, I've decided to keep it all to myself because this is the only way there's less pain for us. I'm going to break your heart now, push you away...

hate me! hate me for this because I'm letting you go, I'm letting you down.

But darling, i have no other way. This is killing me, staying close to your heart, talking everyday, then why are we still so far away?

It's hard to watch your heart snapping under the pressure of my words, and as much as i want to fix it, i should restrain myself from doing it all over again.

it's been three days i haven't kissed or hugged you, haven't felt the heat of your body, the warmth of your love, but it feels like it's been three decades...

I know that you're aware that I'm pretending hard to hate you, but yes this is it, this is how it's going to be...

I'm trying so hard to drift away from the love you gave me, staying up all night, crying myself to sleep, asking myself why can't i have you by my side...

I've spent last night gazing myself into the mirror, trying to find the cracks that I'm trying to hide. bits and pieces of all of our memories, trying to find the marks that your love has left on me...

I blame you for all this darling, because you let me in. You gave me your love, made me feel like I'm the one and when i got so close to your heart that there was no going back, you told me that we can't be together...

This is not how it works. You have to work it out.. why do i feel like I'm not the only one? i don't feel special anymore...

Your words... you telling me that " making you blush is my favorite thing to do", telling me how you love me for everything, telling me how you wanted to make me yours since the day we met, telling me how it kills you if we're not talking to each other even for a day, telling me what you want to do to me if i was right in front of you, turning me on every moment you say my name. The way you spell the "d" in my name gives me butterflies, telling me that i was the voice keeping you strong in your bad times and that you trust me with everything...

Darling, how can you expect me to go back? how can i forget it all? was it really just a game? or was it really you saying it all?

I will push you away now, pretend i don't care, keep myself away, stay apart. I can live with this pain but i will leave you alone. because i can't do this anymore darling, i can't do this anymore...
Is it a goodbye to my almost lover...?
I don't know if I'm doing the right thing, i don't know if i have enough patience and courage to let him go but i need this. I need to tell myself that i have to let go. Even if that means i have to convince myself that his love wasn't real. Why is it too hard to let go? :(
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Can't hold myself, can't get any better, I'm torn apart from my soul
Feelings switched off...
her chest feels like it's going to explode, lungs fighting for some air. sitting alone in the dark, deep silence yet she can hear herself screaming, calling for help, asking herself what have i done to deserve all this?
he asked her to give up on him, to let him go.
he thinks she can't take it, she can't bear it at all, or she needs to stay safe from all the hate she got.

She wanted to fight, wanted to say that she can stay but she bit her tongue once again, pretending that she's okay.

Her heart yelled at her, screaming, not again!!! just say it, say that you want to stay!!! your story isn't over yet, you need to try again!
the earth falls above her, wrecking her once again.

She could see him, see him suffer. telling her that it's for the best because he doesn't want to see her in pain.

both shattered...hiding whatever they want to say...making everyone else comfortable...pretending that's all they wanna say...

can you hear them? Can you see their crushed hearts? Screaming silently to release their pain..
trying so hard to hold on...still being friends... telling lies to each other
broken again...
A Nix to Self Destruction!
Life becomes hard when you have to give up on someone you don't want to. It becomes hell when the person ask you to do it for the sake of your own good because apparently it's causing problems for both of you, killing you from inside.
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Everything that i want to do
Anywhere that i want to be
You say i suck, i try again
But still i fail to do it till the end
Because
You make it look like it's not cool
You always make me look like a fool
Not going to make any resolution for the New Year, but i have so much to say, so much to divulge... This year was the best yet the worst year of my life. there was a point when i felt my whole life is shattered. Sometimes something hits you deep inside your heart and rips your soul apart from your body, you have to crush your feelings with a mallet to stay put because you're meant to be strong...you've always been strong. I've made countless mistakes.. this year brought me to my breaking point but as every cloud has a silver lining... I've learned how to come out of your terrible phase when your family and friends are standing right behind you to hold you in case you lose control and fall. Not going to drag it anymore because i can as i can be a lunatic :D
just want to share with you all that i will start posting some pages from my journal and some of my poems as some of them changed a friend's life. i kept my stuff hidden for past few years but i hope i'll be able to share them now. xx

Happy 2k17. here's to the new start! xx <3

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Lady-Yume Featured By Owner Mar 11, 2017   Writer
Hello,

Thank you for reading my work and adding me to your +watch! :aww:
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emperorbutch Featured By Owner Jan 19, 2017
I appreciate the watch very much. I'll try not to disappoint. 😊
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RawEmotionalSoul Featured By Owner Jan 20, 2017  New Deviant Hobbyist General Artist
Sure 😊
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